War And Peace: Book 4 - CHAPTER VI

作者: Leo Tolstoy

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Author: Leo Tolstoy

PIERRE had of late rarely seen his wife alone. Both at Petersburg and at

Moscow their house had been constantly full of guests. On the night following

the duel he did not go to his bedroom, but spent the night, as he often did, in

his huge study, formerly his father's room, the very room indeed in which Count

Bezuhov had died.

He lay down on the couch and tried to go to sleep, so as to forget all that

had happened to him, but he could not do so. Such a tempest of feelings,

thoughts, and reminiscences suddenly arose in his soul, that, far from going to

sleep, he could not even sit still in one place, and was forced to leap up from

the couch and pace with rapid steps about the room. At one moment he had a

vision of his wife, as she was in the first days after their marriage, with her

bare shoulders, and languid, passionate eyes; and then immediately by her side

he saw the handsome, impudent, hard, and ironical face of Dolohov, as he had

seen it at the banquet, and again the same face of Dolohov, pale, quivering, in

agony, as it had been when he turned and sank in the snow.

“What has happened?” he asked himself; “I have killed her lover; yes,

killed the lover of my wife. Yes, that has happened. Why was it? How have I come

to this?” “Because you married her,” answered an inner voice.

“But how am I to blame?” he asked. “For marrying without loving her, for

deceiving yourself and her.” And vividly he recalled that minute after supper at

Prince Vassily's when he had said those words he found so difficult to utter: “I

love you.” “It has all come from that. Even then I felt it,” he thought; “I felt

at the time that it wasn't the right thing, that I had no right to do it. And so

it has turned out.” He recalled the honeymoon, and blushed at the recollection

of it. Particularly vivid, humiliating, and shameful was the memory of how one

day soon after his marriage he had come in his silk dressing-gown out of his

bedroom into his study at twelve o'clock in the day, and in his study had found

his head steward, who had bowed deferentially, and looking at Pierre's face and

his dressing-gown, had faintly smiled, as though to express by that smile his

respectful sympathy with his patron's happiness. “And how often I have been

proud of her, proud of her majestic beauty, her social tact,” he thought; “proud

of my house, in which she received all Petersburg, proud of her

unapproachability and beauty. So this was what I prided myself on. I used to

think then that I did not understand her. How often, reflecting on her

character, I have told myself that I was to blame, that I did not understand

her, did not understand that everlasting composure and complacency, and the

absence of all preferences and desires, and the solution of the whole riddle lay

in that fearful word, that she is a dissolute woman; I have found that fearful

word, and all has become clear.

“Anatole used to come to borrow money of her, and used to kiss her on her

bare shoulders. She didn't give him money; but she let herself be kissed. Her

father used to try in joke to rouse her jealousy; with a serene smile she used

to say she was not fool enough to be jealous. Let him do as he likes, she used

to say about me. I asked her once if she felt no symptoms of pregnancy. She

laughed contemptuously, and said she was not such a fool as to want children,

and that she would never have a child by me.”

Then he thought of the coarseness, the bluntness of her ideas, and the

vulgarity of the expressions that were characteristic of her, although she had

been brought up in the highest aristocratic circles. “Not quite such a fool…you

just try it on…you clear out of this,” she would say. Often, watching the

favourable impression she made on young and old, on men and women, Pierre could

not understand why it was he did not love her. “Yes; I never loved her,” Pierre

said to himself; “I knew she was a dissolute woman,” he repeated to himself;

“but I did not dare own it to myself.

“And now Dolohov: there he sits in the snow and forces himself to smile; and

dies with maybe some swaggering affectation on his lips in answer to my

remorse.”

Pierre was one of those people who in spite of external weakness of

character—so-called—do not seek a confidant for their sorrows. He worked through

his trouble alone.

“She, she alone is to blame for everything,” he said to himself; “but what of

it? Why did I bind myself to her; why did I say to her that ‘I love you,' which

was a lie, and worse than a lie,” he said to himself; “I am to blame, and ought

to bear … What? The disgrace to my name, the misery of my life? Oh, that's all

rubbish,” he thought, “disgrace to one's name and honour, all that's relative,

all that's apart from myself.

“Louis XVI was executed because they said he was dishonourable and a

criminal” (the idea crossed Pierre's mind), “and they were right from their

point of view just as those were right too who died a martyr's death for his

sake, and canonised him as a saint. Then Robespierre was executed for being a

tyrant. Who is right, who is wrong? No one. But live while you live, to-morrow

you die, as I might have died an hour ago. And is it worth worrying oneself,

when life is only one second in comparison with eternity?” But at the moment

when he believed himself soothed by reflections of that sort, he suddenly had a

vision of her, and of her at those moments when he had most violently

expressed his most insincere love to her, and he felt a rush of blood to his

heart, and had to jump up again, and move about and break and tear to pieces

anything that his hands came across. “Why did I say to her ‘I love you'?” he

kept repeating to himself. And as he repeated the question for the tenth time

the saying of Molière came into his head: “But what the devil was he doing in

that galley?” and he laughed at himself.

In the night he called for his valet and bade him pack up to go to

Petersburg. He could not conceive how he was going to speak to her now. He

resolved that next day he would go away, leaving her a letter, in which he would

announce his intention of parting from her for ever.

In the morning when the valet came into the study with his coffee, Pierre was

lying on an ottoman asleep with an open book in his hand.

He woke up and looked about him for a long while in alarm, unable to grasp

where he was.

“The countess sent to inquire if your excellency were at home,” said the

valet.

But before Pierre had time to make up his mind what answer he would send, the

countess herself walked calmly and majestically into the room. She was wearing a

white satin dressing-gown embroidered with silver, and had her hair in two

immense coils wound like a coronet round her exquisite head. In spite of her

calm, there was a wrathful line on her rather prominent, marble brow. With her

accustomed self-control and composure she did not begin to speak till the valet

had left the room. She knew of the duel and had come to talk of it. She waited

till the valet had set the coffee and gone out. Pierre looked timidly at her

over his spectacles, and as the hare, hemmed in by dogs, goes on lying with its

ears back in sight of its foes, so he tried to go on reading. But he felt that

this was senseless and impossible, and again he glanced timidly at her. She did

not sit down, but stood looking at him with a disdainful smile, waiting for the

valet to be gone.

“What's this about now? What have you been up to? I'm asking you,” she said

sternly.

“I? I? what?” said Pierre.

“You going in for deeds of valour! Now, answer me, what does this duel mean?

What did you want to prove by it? Eh! I ask you the question.” Pierre turned

heavily on the sofa, opened his mouth but could not answer.

“If you won't answer, I'll tell you …” Ellen went on. “You believe everything

you're told. You were told …” Ellen laughed, “that Dolohov was my lover,” she

said in French, with her coarse plainness of speech, uttering the word

“amant” like any other word, “and you believed it! But what have you

proved by this? What have you proved by this duel? That you're a fool; but every

one knew that as it was. What does it lead to? Why, that I'm made a

laughing-stock to all Moscow; that every one's saying that when you were drunk

and didn't know what you were doing, you challenged a man of whom you were

jealous without grounds,” Ellen raised her voice and grew more and more

passionate; “who's a better man than you in every respect. …”

“Hem … hem …” Pierre growled, wrinkling up his face, and neither looking at

her nor stirring a muscle.

“And how came you to believe that he's my lover? … Eh? Because I like his

society? If you were cleverer and more agreeable, I should prefer yours.”

“Don't speak to me … I beseech you,” Pierre muttered huskily.

“Why shouldn't I speak? I can speak as I like, and I tell you boldly that

it's not many a wife who with a husband like you wouldn't have taken a lover,

but I haven't done it,” she said. Pierre tried to say something, glanced at her

with strange eyes, whose meaning she did not comprehend, and lay down again. He

was in physical agony at that moment; he felt a weight on his chest so that he

could not breathe. He knew that he must do something to put an end to this agony

but what he wanted to do was too horrible.

“We had better part,” he articulated huskily.

“Part, by all means, only if you give me a fortune,” said Ellen. …

“Part—that's a threat to frighten me!”

Pierre leaped up from the couch and rushed staggering towards her.

“I'll kill you!” he shouted, and snatching up a marble slab from a table with

a strength he had not known in himself till then, he made a step towards her and

waved it at her.

Ellen's face was terrible to see; she shrieked and darted away from him. His

father's nature showed itself in him. Pierre felt the abandonment and the

fascination of frenzy. He flung down the slab, shivering it into fragments, and

with open arms swooping down upon Ellen, screamed “Go!” in a voice so terrible

that they heard it all over the house with horror. God knows what Pierre would

have done at that moment if Ellen had not run out of the room.

A week later Pierre had made over to his wife the revenue from all his

estates in Great Russia, which made up the larger half of his property, and had

gone away alone to Petersburg.

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